Matthew 6: 34
Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow.
Here’s the next post about my ten-year journey with NF2 and brain tumors.
Ten years ago, I was a fairly normal person. I had no major health problems. Every now and then, I would have to spray for my asthma. I took a pill for high cholesterol. And my feet hurt because of something called plantar faciitis.
But that was it!
Pretty good for 57.
And now I’m 67.
A lot’s changed for me in the past ten years since being diagnosed with bilateral Acoustic Neuromas and Neurofibromatosis Type 2. NF2 is a genetic condition that allows tumors to grow anywhere there is a nerve. I do have several other tumors but they don’t cause me any problems so that’s a good thing. But the thing is I could develop more tumors at any time and that wouldn’t be a good thing.
In fact, one of my tumors has started growing again after almost nine years. And so I’m back in treatment. Again!
I could spend my time worrying. What if I get more tumors? What if I have to have an operation? What if…what if….what if…
I could spend my time grumbling and complaining. It’s not fair. Why do I have to be the one with all these health problems? Why? Why? Why?
I could spend my time being depressed. I can’t do this. I’m so tired of being sick. Life will never be good again.
But I choose not to live a life of anxiety and worry or anger and bitterness or sadness and depression. And two little words are the reason I can do that. Two little words that change everything.
Matthew 19: 26
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Those two little words are WITH GOD.
With God—I have peace in spite of my circumstances.
With God—I have joy to enjoy the life God gave me.
With God—I have hope for my future.
With God—I have the strength to endure.
One thing I’ve learned in life is that we can’t always control what happens to us. But we can always control how we choose to react.
I choose—WITH GOD.