Philippians 4: 7

And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Did you notice the all-capital letter title? I’m not exactly yelling but…I’m definitely frustrated. Or at least I was for a little while this week. Once I tell you why, you’ll probably agree that my frustration is understandable. But Philippians 4:7 says God gives a peace that transcends all understanding.

And that’s where I am right now–in this moment. Not sure where I’ll be in the next but I’m praying to stay in the peace of God that transcends all understanding.

I was diagnosed with bilateral brain tumors 4 years ago this month. At the time, the doctor told me I would need 2 separate Gamma Knife surgeries and it would take a year to recover from them. In August 2012, I have my first Gamma Knife and then in October 2013 I had my second. So by all accounts my treatments should be finished by October 2014, right?

Wrong!

The problem is that my hearing keeps going wonky! Meaning sounds become so distorted that I can’t understand speech at all! Not a good thing. I lost all my hearing in my right ear after the Gamma Knife and started to lose my hearing in my left. But my wonderful doctors at Cleveland Clinic have worked really hard for that not to happen.

Since the 2nd Gamma Knife, I’ve had two rounds of chemotherapy and months and months of being on steroids. Not a good thing either but this past January I was told my tumors were stable. Finally! No more treatments and I wouldn’t need another MRI until the following January.

YAY! Right? Wrong!

This past Saturday, the wonky hearing came back. I’m now back under the doctor’s care, on steroids again and hoping to avoid a 3rd round of chemo. Along with that, I finally got to the lowest weight in almost 20 years! Another big YAY until I had sto start taking the steroids again. Now, I’m eating and eating and….you get my point.

If that wasn’t enough, we’ve had a bad week at our house with several other major upsets and I do mean major. So you can understand my frustration, right? But I choose not to live and wallow in that frustration. I have my moments but I refuse to get stuck in those moments.

So how do I do that? As the verse above says, Phillipians 4: 7 says it’s a peace that transcends understanding. What I can tell you is I’ve done a lot of talking with God this week. Yes, I’ve asked for healing and asked others to pray for that as well. But that’s only been the start of our talks. I’ve also told God I trust Him. I know He loves me whatever happens. And just telling Him how incredibly frustrating the situation is for me along with some old-fashioned praise and thanksgiving. Because after all things could be worse.

I’ve also spent time focusing on the Bible, specifically verses that talk about who I am in Christ. The comfort, support, and encouragement I get from the Bible keeps me focused on Jesus, not on my circumstances.

Finally, I’ve  made a point to spend time listening to and singing uplifiting music, both praise and traditional hymns. Both add to my joy and my peace. I haven’t been able to hear all the words but that’s OK, I could still sing along.

So that’s been my week, I pray yours was better.

Now it’s YOUR TURN: What’s something you do to stay in God’s peace and joy no matter what circumstances you find yourself in.

GOD BLESS & GOOD READING!

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